Farewell To my First Love
By: D.J. A.
7 o' clock in the morning I'm going to school.
I wish today is my lucky day.
As look far away to see the beautiful bliss in my way.
Then your name pop out my mind and I feel excited what will happen today.
Because I will see you again, admiring your beautiful angelic face again.
Hoping that you'll not call me a devil today for I am only a foolish admirer.
Who's crazy in love because you're my first love.
The madness started last December 1989.
when you came to fetch your toddler cousin
Brenda who's sang a Christmas carol in our front door.
I was the one who opened the door and was strucked.
When you left I asked my cousin,
“Who's that pretty girl?”
She told me your name was Laura Villena.
Then I saw you going home riding your Chinese bike.
I said wow, I found a goddess in my darkness time.
My heart went crazy that night, I couldn't help to imagine your name.
Then you became my princess charming, who became my leading lady in my day dreams.
It June 1990 first day of school, recovering from my depression syndrome.
I meet you again and this time I couldn't stop my feeling so I wrote you a love letter.
You rejected it and ignore me, I stopped because I don't wanna make you cry.
So leave those things away and settled in my daydreaming.
I'm such a creep, I couldn't speak in front of you.
I couldn't make friends, I don't know why you drive me crazy.
That made me obsess to your kinder garden picture,
sorry it was your sister Annabelle's Fault who made me chase your pictures with her Chinese bike for 20 pesos.
I know, I was stupid even my cousin laugh so hard because of it.
One afternoon, your at your school cleaning duties and you left your school bag
outside your classroom.
The devil whispered and advised me to pick 3 roses near the pool.
I secretly open your bag and put it but your loud mouth classmate caught me.
That cause you a headache and made you cry.
Calling me a devil while hiding my face in the baseball gloves.
It was painful but I admitted it it was my fault.
Since then I keep my distance.
But every time there's a chance I try to impressed you but I was really a dork.
I failed my attempts that made me look like a stupid in front of you.
So I step back and keep my feelings inside until you became my shadow.
Many years passed by, we're now grow-ups living in different paths.
But I still never forget your name, it's like a tattoo.
That I couldn't let go for more than 10 years.
Your name was so special that I made September 9 a holiday.
But fate convinced me to accept that we're not for each other.
And even in my daydreams you playing a supporting role.
If you could only know, how you helped my heart to be strong and became mature.
I know first love never dies, you've been a part of my life.
Now I can say goodbye, thank you for your charm that made who I am today.
I was fallen for you, my heart was dying for you.
It was so deep that took me 10 years to forget you my dear.
You changed my life without your knowledge and then I discover my art.
You became my inspiration to all my masterpiece.
I want to say thank you for being my first love.
